Jayce,

I hope it didn't show while I was talking to her after reading the "letter". My reaction on the inside was Again!!?? Then just an empty sorrow later on as I knew I'd probably never be able to reach her. I hope I'm wrong and maybe with a little time what I said will sink in.

The not liking kissing thing started fairly early in our relationship, yet another warning sign I ignored. Mainly she just didn't like aggressive kissing. Tongues? Well if they don't go too far. Now it's to the point where she really doesn't even want an open mouthed kiss at all. \:\(

I don't and never have smoked and my breath is still good as long as I brush, floss and brush my tongue. I think that goes for everyone anyway. I have good teeth and gums, been going to the dentist twice a year since I had teeth.

She hugs on D but doesn't kiss her.

W didn't start her job today because they hadn't gotten the results from her background check. Looks like she will start Monday instead. It's just as well because she is coming down with what ever I am just now getting over. Sinus infection.

If she initiated a separation, first I would be in shock. \:o I don't believe that would ever happen. If it did though... I would be relieved because I would feel we were on the same page. It would mean that she is able to release me. We would be able to release one another knowing that there is just something no longer right about our marriage any longer.

I chose this letter over my ultimatum letter. I wasn't ready for an ultimatum and wanted to leave the door open for her. The door to my heart has always been open for her to step right in any time she wishes to. I only wish that hers was open to me as well.

Thanks for looking in on me Jayce.

Cinco