I'm not BUCKING anyone off Jack. I hear you and what your saying very well. I AM NOT experienced like some of you. Forgive me If I question what is going on with my sitch. I don't know you and how well your versed in these archives. This area of my life is VERY dear to me and I am a little hesitant to allow someone else to armchair quarterback. Give me a little latitude. I can't just take what your saying and work it into my life immediately. I am trusting you and what you all say. It is very confusing to just blatantly change my habits. I am working on it.
