Well, I can only express how I feel. I dont know how he feels. He is supposed to write me back. He hasnt yet. Today's phone call was clinging (sp) from his side. I asked how he is and didnt stop any discussion but I didnt start any either. It was a sad convo between two people that loved each other very much once and can hardly talk to each other now. I think he feels I am giving up. He mentioned something about taking the kids to his house tomorrow?!! He is welcome to. I am not going to ask for his company. We havent seen each other since last Sunday.
I sent a TM saying "I am sorry things are like this". His answer "what things?". I said something about him being sick/ill and tired.
For those people trying to help me out by asking me to look at other ways to approach this like FG, maybe Fb2, although "John's post" was a "walk away its not working post", maybe sandy and the rest, can you please name 10 things, little ones, that he has done and I have mentioned here over the last 3 months showing how much he loves and needs me? And then can you tell me if these 10 things should be enough to keep me going?
My C couldnt do it today. I really need help before I walk. Because that is my plan now Fb2, not early signs, I am ready to pack and go...
What I meant how Mariage is and "unreal situations", for me M has been "being alone, loving a man desperately, being in love with him, begging for affection, words, time, sex, sharing lifer in general and at the same time being grateful that he was a good father the 16 hours per week he saw the kids, never tried to reduce my "freedom", respected me and treated my parents well. For years I was made to believe I am selfish to want more since he couldnt give more. Well, is that normal? What is? How other's balance work? Am I fooling myself that in a marriage both can be happy? What do I get wrong? Am I really so selfish and miss his sacrifice? K
