good afternoon Friends! I slept very well last night, no response to my D17 issue yet, but I am thinking it is going to happen. W thoughts keep popping in my head, "tehm" actually. I push 'em out and tell myself to stop. I believe the other one may be trying to distract now. Walk seems to be good, I am at least upright and moving. D17 wanted some money to go out this weekend. I don't have any and my initial response was to tell her to call her mother. Rejected that. She text me back and informed me her mother won't have any. What is she reading my mind, I never sent the text to ask her mother. Hmmmm..
I have less than what she asked for but she knows I have to buy food tonight. She that will be ok, like it was up for debate.
i need to get to the GYM! I need to really hit it like I was a couple of years ago. I need to really hit it every morning before work. Stop this sleeping till 6:00 AM.
I have decided that I need to go out one day each weekend and see people, not stay home, do projects or watch football by myself. He wants me to see people, to get out to my friends and family. I see my self on this walk, its a real good image, wish I could draw. He is slightly ahead of me, makes sense, I need to folow Him. We are talking but I can't get any of the conversation. I don't reallly see Him, I am behind Him and to the left. But I don't see Him, He is there, of that there is no doubt. I think I finally got to the point I need to be. the "Rage" as I call it (my anger and pain if you will) has got me started. No I am nopt showing signs of anger or rage or even pain. I am hoping that it lasts for a while, so this walk really gets under way. Not one thought of contacting her or even seeing if she got her car back. Its not that I don't want to know, its just none of my business. You heard me right, "NONE OF MY BUSINESS". Feels good to say it.
Things are going well. i am looking forward to this weekend without any reason why, just am. Sleeping in a little, dogs nails need to get clipped, coming into work for 3 hours tomorrow, shelf up in my office/sitting room and setting up my Dads accomodations and pictures and his chimes that have his ashes in it. That will be Saturdays project. the only project Saturday. I might go to a dance Saturday night if nothing is going on. country Line dancing place I go to for lessons is having a dance.
I feel alittle less , I don't know the word, excited or agitated.
