K I am thinking of you a lot today. My first impression after reading today's post from you is that you need to just let it be over. That you are bringing yourself down in order to meet him at his level.
But FB made some good points to about how you have to take them where they are now before you can go forward with your husband. So maybe I should think on that.
Have you ever asked your husband, point blank, What are youtrying to do to rebuild our marriage? I would be curious his answer. Because all the time I thought I was doing everything and my husband was doing nothing. When I asked him about it, he actually thought he was doing some things to help, although he admitted it was not enough. Like he thought that just sleeping in the same house with me was a gesture since he had previously lived out of the house....and in your case your H has only slept over a couple of times, right?
I just wonder what he thinks he is doing to help get things back on track. That is why I was curious to see if he would write a letter back to you.
Sorry I am not helpful at all I am not sure what to say at this point.....I just want for you to feel like YOU again. I empathize on the weight gain thing, I am back to running b/c since my H came back in July, I have gained 15 pounds!
