FIB--beginnersmind has said some very wise things. Sad and difficult to hear, perhaps, but wise.
You are a rare and wonderful person, a man of integrity and a great father. All of those things shine through on your posts in spite of tremendous adversity.
I wish for you to find peace, and that one day you will find there's joy in life remaining.
M60 H52 D20 M14 yrs OW-old gf from 1986 bomb-5/18/08 H filed for D-9/10/08 D final 4/24/09 xH remarried (not OW) 2012