Hi girls.. well, I signed up for yoga and pilates years ago but only went a few times and went for the odd swim over the years, but apart from that and those bike rides with the ex last summer, thats it!
No email from Cher after last night, which is a shame and I'm too nervous to contact her, after her changing her invite for me to go. No email from him either today so far...
I read Kalni's post and it really touched me, as thats how I feel, different journey, same destination. I am so tired of feeling unloved and uncherished, I am apathetic, I cant get on with college work, I feel unattractive, I hide in the house, I am pretty depressed (hence forcing myself to sign up for these activities) and I am tired of being alone. His rejection of me feels like it was twice...and thats really got to me.
I stirs me up to get emails/phonecalls from him and have NO IDEA why, or whats going on his head/life and then I crash again afterwards. I want to be able to see him, to ask him a year on, this time calmly, why did you leave me? And be able to say goodbye to him and have some closure. Think that will be a while yet.
