I am with you, sister. My XW always warmed up to me whenever she was between 'flavors-of-the-months.' She sees me as safe, as long as I don't mind being her emotional tampon and don't want anything from her in return like respect and/or a marriage.
I am simply taking my steps, as I find myself able, to disengage. I know, for myself, even the smallest of steps in that direction are HUGE for me and I need to congratulate myself and acknowledge my progress in the right direction, instead of beating myself up because my steps aren't big enough, didn't come fast enough or weren't perfect.
Good luck, sister. Keep posting for your sanity. Keep working on you and making yourself more attractive for yourself. YOU are worth it. Your work on you is your gift to YOU, and YOU get to keep that gift forever.
Letting Go Tom
Last edited by still hopeful; 01/16/0908:56 AM.
Letting Go Tom; JUST DO IT! previously hopeful_husband
my A: Fall 05 W found out: Feb 06; separated immediately W pursued D, final 7/11/07