Even if there were hope in my mind, I know my W and forgiveness is not something she's good at. She won't forgive the way I reacted to her last night.
I think she should be asking you for forgiveness. What she did was inexcusable in my mind. She is messed up. I think your reaction was probably what most of us would have done. I don't think you should even worry about her forgiving you. You shouldn't be asking for her forgiveness!!!
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And I don't know that I can ever trust her either.
From what you've said, you shouldn't trust her at this point.
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My plan is to have NC. She's moving out at the end of the month and I'm just planning on having nothing to do w/her.
I think that's a good plan. I mean either she's going to continue in her messed-up way having As and you wouldn't want her then. If at some point she comes to her senses, begs your forgiveness and is willing to work on your R then you could always change your mind at that time. I think that could happen and if you don't NC now, you will be too hurt and have gone through too much pain to ever really forgive and work on your R again.
So NC, DB, GAL, all that good stuff. Keep posting here; a lot of us have been through this. I went through that awful dark period about a year ago now, and it gets so much better. You'll get stronger and happier and healthier if you detach and focus on yourself rather than your W. Karen
