Am I eternally hopeful or in denial....?

[Silent Chrleader]

Hi, BM!

Yeh, H and I have a session together next week to talk about S17 followed by a session with all 3 of us.

I was contemplating today whether I should use some of that time to talk about my disappointment and difficulty in accepting that my H feels compfortable walking away without having been through MC really. We went for several months 18 years ago, and we have had a handful of sessions with our current C all about S17 and the family. Nothing about our M really because H wasn't "ready" and or "didn't want to". And he makes no bones about saying that point. "I don't want to"

Anyway, I still have trouble swallowing that he is perfectly content with that, and I feel there are a LOT of issues that have never even been looked at. But, I also know that H is still not ready to discuss it. C says H seems to be content keeping on his current "journey". So, I don't think it would do any good to try to push it even in C. And it would likely look like pursuing to H anyway, so it could set us back, and I don't want to do that because we have been getting along pretty well lately.

I know I just have to maintain my patience.......actually I never had any patience to begin with, so there's nothing to "maintain".........I guess I just need to keep working on building patience!

This sucks! I wanna hug!........no, what I really want is a conjugal visit with my H!!