im sure most can relate - i have good days and bad days. lately i have been having good days - which means im not dwelling on things, im not thinking about ow, im not angry or bitter. i just go about my day happily, and when i speak to or see my h, im fine. im pleasant, im nice, im fun and i dont ask questions.
and then something will trigger me to think of ow, my wheels start spinning and im back to feeling bad in a sense. i start to think about valentines day (which is a saturday - will he be with me? will he split the day, will he lie and try to convince me he isnt with her anymore(which is what he usually tells me...)
i do the thought stopping, but sometimes it just doesnt help.
i try to get myself back to feeling good, but its hard. the severity of the situation is too much sometimes.
just felt like venting.
me: 31 H:29 Son:5 m:8 years in november t:10 years first bomb: 10/06 moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08 ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06 d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08 moved home:3/09 out again 5/09
I go through this too mdoodles. It is tough. I forgot Valentines Day was coming up until you just mentioned it.
I guess all we can do is hang in there and take one day at a time. As tough as that is. Maybe one day they will wake up and see what they have done. If it is too late, then they will have to deal with that.
