Hey Specialest of K's..

I was told I couldn't pull the trigger to accept the divorce and that was with a spouse who was long gone. I can't imagine what it's like in your case. It was my commitment to the 'family', my fear of financial insecurity, being alone, belief in what brought us together, disbelief that kept me from moving forward.

My brother who's been through this tells me your reality is never as bad as your fears tell you.

Folks can survive just about anything. The question surrounds living.

I never wanted this, yet my actions in the past, along with his, got us to where we are today. I worried about the hole in my children's hearts from this divorce. Someone asked me.. would you rather have your kids see you in and expect a one sided relationship or learn what to expect from a great relationship.. not settling.

I never wanted this.. but I couldn't go back to what was. I've grown so much.. so have you.

It's catch up or eat my dust, baby.

*hugs*