I'm going to have to come on here and post my entire situation later but for right now. I'm questioning whether I should have sex with my husband.
A brief description: Me 30, H 28. DS7, DD4 We had a sex starved marriage. My fault, I thought I had forgiven past infedilities but I didn't truly let go and emotionally it took it's toll. He has moved out. He has forced my hand at filing dissolution papers versus a messy divorce. He still comes over and openly admits he wants sex with me but not to get any false hopes up cause he wants the divorce. I've suspected for the last 2 weeks he's having an emotional affair and a reliable source confirmed it today. Tonight he says he's coming over for a wild night. The part of me that wants to save this marriage and hold on to him says, "yes do it, what a 180". The hurt wife in me that wishes she could just let go and forget the pain, feels like this is close to sexual abuse and I wonder how I am respecting myself by allowing these encounters.
Next, let me say, I am trying to grow as a christian and by that, I shouldn't deny my husband because he is still, my husband, no matter how short a length of time I have left.
Any thoughts or guidance for me? I'm just not sure what to do.
No solo de pan vive el hombre
Y no de excusas vivo yo.
