I guess I'm at the point where I've given up. I guess I was really horrible at doing this. I could never see beyond the things she was doing and saying and I've lost hope. Even if there were hope in my mind, I know my W and forgiveness is not something she's good at. She won't forgive the way I reacted to her last night. And I don't know that I can ever trust her either. My plan is to have NC. She's moving out at the end of the month and I'm just planning on having nothing to do w/her. I told her to consider me dead and that I considered her dead. This will hurt very much, but at this point I don't see an alternative.
