Sorry but I don't know wth is going on....I know that rage and love don't partner up much. I know rage prevents forgiveness, and you have to forgive, HAVE TO, to move on and heal. And forgiveness, for the 2345th time, is not about your w or even telling her. It's for YOU to do so you can be free. Not get her back, or "Win". But to be free b/c you sure aren't now. You are chained by your emotions right now. And you refuse to unlock the chains, and other than that, I am at a loss as to how to help you since I don't know what you're doing. It sounds a lot like an angry form of a pity party, but I don't know. You worry me.
I do know your kids are off the hook as far as I'm concerned. I have kids that age and younger. She lashed out at the parent who showed up. What's new? Love her through this and heed FH's words. You are being given a gift from Him, via FH, and don't ignore it b/c you are angry. Has your anger really served you nearly as well as you think? Somehow, I doubt it. I mean, if it got you through a POW camp, great. But this is about relating to people you love. So, lose the "rage" and stop giving it all the power.
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