well... I hit send again. It was neutral, jokey. I answered him about the tenant stuff (it wasnt an excuse to email me, he could have got the info from the letting agent). He will get it before he leaves work.
So I was a bit down about Cher binning me for band night.. she has messages on her wall on FB arranging to go with other girls (old friends) but she told me yesterday that she wasnt going to bother going! she also said yesterday that she didnt know if her fiance and my ex were still meeting tonight. So, not sure how to take that, it cant be why she hasnt invited me (in case its awkward). Perhaps ex was actually bringing Helen along. Perhaps she#s gone off me!! She did text me Saturday and met me and my sister all afternoon, her idea and was emailing me this week. BUt I guess she didnt want me there for some reason.
I was a bit hurt and embarressed she lied though, I'm a bit vunerable to rejection stuff still.
I've realised that I CANT be friends with him. It was hard enough before, when he was contacting me alot, but I was trying to win him back. I kept accepting contact from him after I found out about Helen, hoping it was just a fling.. but.. if he is staying with her, I am not sure I can do it. It hurts too much!
I'll wait and see how things shake out between now and mid Feb.. seeing as we are in Mercury R in his oppositie sign plus two eclipses, one on my Venus and one on his Leo sun...
I saw B21 at college today..I made him (and BMF) laugh the WHOLE time! I was just in one of those moods...
