H has actually been nice to me since the Max euthanasia event. Not open, not reconnected, none of that--but just more like I'm a human being. It's much easier to take, and I feel like I could co-parent like this long-term. I have much more peace about it.
It seems that others are getting the vibe as well. I am suddenly much more a member of the staff at school, kids are hugging me; I was even informed that the 3rd grade teacher never visited the nurse's office quite this much before I came (he's single; honestly, I didn't notice any of this). I feel alive again, and I like it very much.
It is tremendously healing to have reconnected. And even more so to know that there was this little spark in the corner of my friend's heart that never really went away. I have been uniquely isolated, I think, and that is a difficult and painful thing to feel so absolutely alone. But to discover that I was remembered warmly and with affection for 25 years is so healing. Apparently I once took a photo of some leaves when we were taking a walk together so long ago, and he still has that photo in his office.
M60 H52 D20 M14 yrs OW-old gf from 1986 bomb-5/18/08 H filed for D-9/10/08 D final 4/24/09 xH remarried (not OW) 2012
