I've Come Full Circle 23

[kat727]

I don't think much about what he/they do. At least not on a daily basis. It is when the kids are drug into the mess that I get upset. I don't think I am supposed to know about it. That is fine. Where that does effect me once again is with my kids and then the financial pocket.

He takes the boys to school each morning because the girls bus comes around the time D16 would need to be walking into school. Once he get his DL, hopefully this Spring, that won't be an issue. If H however changes jobs and takes a lower paying one, I fear they will try to adjust the money again and I will be put in a worse situation again.

I know I can't worry about what ifs, but the choices he makes effect me and the kids even now. I have dropped the rope, don't care if he found out the world was really flat and fell off, I just don't want to keep having a cause and effect type relationship with him in anyway.

This is how it is. I guess this is the type of thing that will be in my life until they are all 18 in 10 years. I appreciate your thoughts lodo, just trying to clarify why it matters.

kat