I am feeling weird today. More confused at myself than him as I am not sure how I am feeling. It took me ages to get to sleep last night and then I woke up early so I am tired today. It is not really that I am thinking and analysing. I think the problem is that I do not know what to think. I don't know what to make of his texts, I don't understand and I have no idea how to answer them. THis is so radically different to me before being so clear about what I wanted - basically him back at any cost. I feel weird that I didn't come away from such a positive meeting feeling any kind of connection, like last time or the time before.
I feel guilty for feeling indifferent. If it was a friend that sent that text I would of course reply and say 'yes, it was great to see you and catch up' but we are not at that stage yet. I find his offers of help strange - is it just guilt? It feels different to his usual guilt texts, it does feel like a genuine offer and I know he wouldn't offer if he didn't mean it.
I have my choir concert tonight and am off to rehearsal soon, it should be exciting! Maybe that will give me a bit of focus. How about
'Yes, it was a nice evening. I'm actually quite excited about moving now. Thanks for the offer of help. The concert was excellent last night, it went really well.' I will send it tomorrow morning.
Any thoughts? Edits?
One thing I am learning, there isn't always an explanation!
