For the Guy with Kids and a WW 23

[hopeful4her]

Hey all.

I'm trying to stay off a little more. At least during the day when I should be working.

I just read what lodo said to kat that, being here and posting so much seems to keep you thinking about our sitch more. I do believe that, at least for me. I think I've mentioned that before.

Anyhoooo

Last night, GBG called my phone from S14's Sprint phone and I had D7 answer it. They talked for a while. D11 was in the shower and I could hear her ask D7 to tell D11 to call her later. After she hung up, D7 tells me that I need to write a note because her mom is going to pick her up from school tomorrow(today).

Later, I get D7 to bed and D11 is just chilling in her room. She usually doesn't think about calling her mom and I didn't remind her to. And she didn't. This morning, waking up D7, she asks if her mom came and dropped off the video's last night. I ask her what she is talking about. She says that GBG told her that they forgot the videos she rented and then she told D7 that she was going to bring them by last night.

Just like her. Tell them something and not follow through on it.
Why the hell say anything?

Thought about GBG on my in to work this morning, which seems to be my norm. Her and our sitch. Thinking if I'll see her car in town. Nope.

Worked half a day today and the rest was at a training class for a new system we'll be using at work. Got out around 4 and decided to go to the grocery store for stuff. I called S14 on his new phone and told him I was checking out and I'll be there in about 10 or 15 minutes. He comes with us tonight and tomorrow. I knew I didn't have to pick up D7 from afterschool. I was hoping that GBG wasn't going to try to have us stay for dinner or something.

Arriving at the apartment, the girls are both in the parking lot with the dog and some friends. Good, I don't have to go knock. I tell them to get their stuff and lets go. I start to move some stuff around in the car to make room. D11 comes out with her stuff, D7 comes just after and I hear her telling her mom that she needs something from the car. I was hoping to not see her at all, but she came out. I don't really say anything to her. I put D7's stuff in my car. GBG then starts to tell me that she fed D11 and S14 already, but not D7.

"Do you want me to....."
She gets cut off by the kids saying something and D7 looking for whatever in GBG's car. The kids are running around and I just go about what I was doing, blowing off what she was going to say. I KNOW what she was going to ask. Finally, the kids are getting in my car and she looks at me like, "Okay, finally!"

"I was GOING to say that D7 didn't eat. If you want, I can pack her fish sticks and macaroni to take."
"No. Thats okay. We'll eat at home." and I turn to close the back of my Explorer. She stands there for a moment, just lookign and then she says her goodbyes to the kids. I get in and don't say anything to her. D7 makes a comment on how she told her that the shirt she was wearing was too tight for her. For GBG that is.
"I know. I was only here at home, it doesn't matter."

I thought the comment was funny. I had prepared a comment myself if she was going to ask if we wanted to eat dinner there together, but she fed them already.

"No thank you. I have food for them. Save it for sancho when he comes to spend the night tonight."

Didn't get the opportunity.

As I'm getting ready to back out, D7 starts to call her mom.

"MOM. MOM."
"What?" asks her mom.
"When are we moving?"
"What?"
"When are we moving?" she asks again.
"I'm...not sure. I don't know if we are. We're going to have to talk."

I backed out and left. Then I noticed that D11 had brought S14's Sprint phone with us. Now GBG doesn't have anything at home.

Awww. I told myself, I better not get a phone call from her using f*cknuts phone. There would have been drama.

We had fun on the way home and at home. They ate again like I figured they would. Eating a dinner at 5pm is a little too early. She did it on purpose. She HAD to feed them. Baths and then to bed for the girls. D7 goes to bed at 8:30, D11 at 9 and S14 usually hits the bed around 11 or so.

I had fun on FB tonight. I did contact Randy by email tonight to see if all was well. He replied he was ok, but more chit coming. Said he would update later.

I had an old high school bud invite me as a friend a couple weeks ago. He was a senior when I was a freshman and he is now a band director for a high school. That was in my band days. First two years of high school. Marching band and Jazz band. I was an average trumpet player, but hated the whole "Band" persona. I rebeled, got kicked out and then played football.

Got invited by another guy that I graduated with on FB. Been years. Good to hear from him. We weren't that great of friends, but we played ball together, went to the same parties and hung out a little. I pretty much hung with all kinds of different people. The jocks, the partiers, the heads, the socials, the band people. He was part of the really popular crowd. Although I did hang with them too, I just felt a little of an outsider with them. He's already invited me to Austin, where he lives now. Sounds like he hasn't changed a whole lot since HS. Sounds like he still likes a good party.

Sounds like fun. He wrote to me that he was divorced, paying child support, bald and fat, and from the sound of his post to my wall, that he still liked to drink it up. And it seems that he likes to run marathons?! Thats a strange mix.

Also chatted with my bud Javi over there. I told him that I was pretty much finished. He said that was too bad, but that he believed that I really tried.

I told him that if anything, the only thing left to try is to NOT try.

But I'm not going to wait forever.