I think you are consumed with so many thoughts/questions/should I call/should I go dark and so on, that you cannot stick to doing one thing such as letting him be. Honestly, I know you wanted to talk to him and that is why you called him.
Personally, and this is my opinion, I think you ought to get busy with projects you enjoy to take your mind off of what you should/should not do and thoughts about the future.
Forget about all of those thoughts dancing around in your head. Just let it be for now or you will drive yourself crazy or make your self sick.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
