Detachment, Pop-Tarts, and Hope

[ThinkingItThru]

Oh, and a couple of hopeful details. On Saturday I asked H if he wanted to go to the gym with me and he said "no". When he saw me getting ready to leave he seemed surprised that I was going anyway and started to make plans of his own to do something. He mentioned going to a movie. At the end of the day he didn't go to the movie. He waited until Sunday when I could go with him. Of course he didn't ask me to go, or invite me...he just said on Sunday..."the movie starts at 12:45. We need to leave by noon".

Plus, he went to the jewelers and picked up my wedding ring. I've been without it since before Christmas when it broke. It rode around in his car console until sometime last week when he took it in to be fixed. Then he picked it up yesterday. He did kind of fling it at me last night when he got home, "Catch". I asked him to put it on my finger and he did. But, and here's kind of a weird thing...I've taken it back off, at least while he's gone. It doesn't feel quite right to be wearing it while he's undecided about whether he wants to stay in our marriage. I guess if I look at the ring as a symbol of our commitment to each other then I'll put it back on. If I look at is as a symbol of everlasting love or of his love for me...I have a difficult time putting it back on.

I'm sure I'll put it back on in the next couple of days.

I must mention this behavior from him is loads better than even a month ago when he seemed angry and hostile towards me.