It's Complicated! Part 3

[glamgirl]

I was reading the story about the pilot that faked his death. This was his conclusion to an e-mail he sent to a close friend.

He concluded, saying, "I never meant to hurt anyone. When life becomes too much people do stupid things."

I wonder if this doesn't fit many MLC'ers. Their lives spin out of control and then they do stupid stuff on top of it. Not trying to make excuses just trying to have some understanding as to why people do the things they do.

H called last night. It was a brief convo. Said he just wanted to say goodnight. I thanked him. He seemed down. Not like during the holidays, but he is off kilter with depression and maybe life in general.

The wierdness continues. He did say that he wasn't doing much to help. I responded and said of course you are h, I do appreciate the help with the kids laundry, bathing and I listed a few things. He said, but Glam I am NOT home to help. I just said well h you will find your way home soon. He said he could just come home and we could have more babies. Hmmmmm! Then he proceeded to say anything is possible.

I just try not to think to much about these convos. Ultimately it is his choice whether he comes home and joins his family or not. I really don't know what keeps him away. He seems to enjoy us, but I guess not enough to come home permanently.

I don't want to focus on what I don't have, but I do have to say it's hard. It's hard not thinking about my future and where it's headed.