Oh I am so nervous. I am going to drop off the application for the house today. Because I am taking Friday off for the Extreme Home Makeover deal (I am volunteering!!!) I have been working so much and haven't been able to get away, but I don't want to lose the chance for this house. I am nervous that because my stupid x boss evicted me from the house he owned after he fired me, they will turn me down.

But I have to try. I love this house, and it would be perfect for me and D12, not too big but not too small.

This year has brought so many changes, and I am thankful to God that I have survived it. I am stunned at how different I am from even when I first started posting. Could this be me?

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..