During a galing activity last night, I had very painful thoughts of h and his long-term EA (now PA). It was horrible to have these thoughts and feelings intrude on one of my new activities that is so important to me. It seems like there are triggers in the most unlikely places. His dishonesty, even though I have forgiven it, will take along time for me to work through.
This is probably one of the main reasons why going dim is the healthiest thing for me right now. However, more and more I can see that it is likely to prepare me for d rather than more active dbing. I feel like a traitor to the troops when I write that, as I read the struggles of all of you as you continue to stand for your marriages. I support all of you and believe in what you are doing.
