You dont, damn it!! You do nothing in regards to HIM. Nothing!!! Do you hear ME? I am coming to "get you" one of these days, I swear! Ali, stop that. The email was indifferent, polite and that was it!. Nothing else. Nobody can be sure of the outcome of any of the sitches here. Things are changing, changing, cnhanging... What you have to go with, is the present. Presently, he is gone. Go with that. Cry, blame yourself, him, Helen, me if you like, but just accept he is gone. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx K