After I'd written my original reply I sat back and read it and realized I was probably reading some stuff that wasn't directed at me. See, I guess I'm getting better at understanding that sometimes when a woman is angry and venting, it's not all about me. Something I definitely used to take personally when W would be in a bad mood. Because she wouldn't talk to me about what was bothering her I took it to mean that she was mad at me and would react accordingly. Because when I'm mad at W, I express why. But W is not wired that way. When she's mad, she doesn't talk about it and I would take it as it being something I did. Another lesson learned for the woman in my life, whether it's W (which I still have hopes for) or the next person.
It's sad, because I know it's coming and I know what's going on with me and I can't help feeling like I just don't care so much anymore. So yes, it would be ironic that just when it seems she may be figuring it out I'm headed in the opposite direction.
We'll see how she is when I get home tonight. And this Saturday is our concert and night away. We're going to see a guy we both LOVE, going to a restaurant for dinner before the concert that we both LOVE. I don't have any expectations that there will be any great breakthrough, but I'd be lying if I didn't say I have some hopes that she'll let herself go and feel.
Probably won't be able to post much the next couple days. I'll try to sneak on here and update how she is when I get home tonight, but we'll see.
Take care everyone.
Hope4us
Me - 49, W 49 S22 & S18 Dday 9/4/07 W claims NC 4/7/08 8/29/09 - Divorce Busted. Lots to work through, but we're going to make it.
