Hey Carlos, is it a cultural thing for her to nurse longer than 2 years ??
You made a comment about getting out side & getting out of these cycles of feelings. Why ? Why not go with the cycles. Why not feel the feelings & then let them pass when they will. They do pass.
I have written on my bathroom mirror to focus on my inner signals, listen to my feelings, let them be my compass.
It's really okay to feel sad sometimes. You don't have to "do" anything to cheer yourself up. Crying is very good for you. Different types of crying release different types of brain chemicals that help us heal our wounds.
Hugs
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.