That's it exactly Jeff. I knew you'd give me another clue. It is the 'little boy' who in my case was abandoned as a child.
More than that. That little boy grew up with you. He is there with you now.
Ever read the Christmas Carol frank?
Dickens said it all better than I (the spirit of Christmas present):
"Oh. Man! Look here"....
"They were a boy and a girl. Yellow, meagre, ragged, scowling, wolfish...
"Where youth should have filled their feaures out, and touched them with its freshest tints, a stale and shrivelled hand, like that of old age, had pinched, and twisted them , and pulled them into shreads.
But the Spirit went on to say...
"This boy is *IGNORANCE* and this girl is *WANT*... Beware them both but beware this BOY, for on his brow I see that written which is DOOM, unless the writing is erraced. DENY IT!!
