H just moved out, 13 months post-bomb

[Dawn of Hope]

Hi, BM, thanks for posting and suggestions. Yes, I do have my own bank account--started out as the bank account for my business, but when things went sideways in the M and I decided to try to cover all my own purchases, it became the "everything" bank account.

Yeah, I'm doing fine, except when I'm beating my head against the wall, or trying to cover expenses that are 3x my income... And I feel like a failure for not being able to forgive H and get past the anger, despite all my prayers and efforts in that direction... I probably have more patience than the average person, but I just feel stuck in a holding pattern right now. Guess I'm experiencing a bit of a slide into hopelessness and depression and questioning of self-worth right now. I find myself wanting to kick and scream and insist that the world (or at least my portion of it) become FAIR, right now! Much of the time, the ADs help me float above all this a bit, but right now I'm getting that sick feeling in the belly.

Okay, I think I'm just making things worse for myself by talking about it. I'm going to go read some other people's threads.

Peace,
Dawn