It's all perspectives and choices. If the approach is feeling defeated and ignored.. the end result will be the same.
Have you tried approaching this with no intentions, no expectations? Whatever happens, happens. Forgive him for how he upsets you? After all.. what upsets us about others is our own internal insecurities and issues being tweaked.
When I read your writing, I see the weight of the world on your shoulders, the weight of the decision upon you, the outcome for your children, the rest of your life. My sister told me to take one little bit a day. Carry just a little. If I try and do it all, it's overwhelming.
The hotel sounds like a great place to do some spa treatments.. love them.. and they make you feel soooo good!
Let go of the expectations of others, the pressure on yourself and face your fears... Just be you in all your glory and screw the rest.
