John, like you, I am very scared at this point. I don't know what is going to happen and I don't trust much of what he says yet. I am going to sit down and write a list of deal breakers for myself and work on how I can communicate those to H in a positive way, including the issues with OW. After I've let the dust settle from this R talk a bit. So far, I find that works the best for us: have a small R talk and then sit back and let us both evaluate things.
I really feel for you having a bad day. The bad days make this so hard and I was having so many of them lately. It was awful. Funny thing is H said I seem so much happier recently. I guess when I am with him, I am more secure, but the times apart still scare me to DEATH. How deep of a convo do you think you will have with W? Maybe doing it in baby steps like me will work for you? Everybody, including you, said to be sure I am ready to let go if I tell him I am letting go. I realized I wasn't at that point yet. But I couldn't sit back any longer and not address certain things with him. Are you still aiming for the end of the month?
Sandy, I too am going to read your threads. I understand piecing is a very difficult place to me. There was a time when I would have been thrilled to be there, but now it just seems so SCARY and so tenuous. Even harder than when we were spending no time together at all.
WP - I am having trouble with the OW situation because I have no proof of anything. It just looks somewhat suspicious and a good friend of mine loves the old saying, If it looks like a duck, and walks like a duck..........
Anyway, I will check out your threads too. Thanks!
