Look at your last paragraph too. "In reality things are so good..." wth? But then you say you can't live "with a brother"....yeah, I agree totally. But you sound really confused as well.
Just noting.
j-

M: 57 H: 60
M: 35 yrs
S30,D28,D19
H off to Alaska 2006
Recon 7/07- 8/08
*2016*
X = "ALASKA 2.0"
GROUND HOG DAY
I File D 10/16
OW
DIV 2/26/2018
X marries OW 5/2016

= CLOSURE 4 ME
Embrace the Change