I did do the reverse lookup on the fax # I had gotten a hold of. It just showed that it was a land line and the address (which I already knew) but there was no additional phone #. I had my sister try calling the carrier again yesterday and see if she could get any results possibly over the phone and she had the same results that I did. No luck:(
vickyd-It is extremely hard not letting them cake-eat. You just want to absorb every ounce of something positive that you can get from them. Although I do realize it is sucking the life out of me and is not fair to me yet I can't seem to let it drop completely.
I can back off and be just fine sometimes and then other times it is almost unbearable. I hate when H and I argue because I worry that he is not going to talk to me at all and that he will hate me but at the same time I am ok when we don't talk. I manage to somehow get through it and then here he will come around again. What a vicious cycle.
I have went without contacting him and it apparantely drives him nuts cause he will almost always contact me. It might take a day or two but that is how it seems to go. If I don't answer and he leaves a message he is always saying things (in a joking way) like "oh I have been kicked to the curb...so and so is more important than I...I see how it is." or something to that nature.
I have read DR and DB as well as SAA. I do the 180's as often and I can. They do work. I just can't bring myself to do the complete "dark" thing. Plus with D7 it makes going dark a lot harder as well. Just yesterday I had to call H to tell him about D7's report card. I always keep him up on things going on with her especially when it concerns her school work.
We were supposed to do the yard sale this weekend and then find out that it is going to freeze here.(of all times!) So we have to put that off which means I will not see him everyday this week now.
However, I managed to have today off work after thinking I would be working and H called this morning right after I found out I would be off. I told him I was off and he asked if I would stop off and pick up some breakfast and come by since we were both starving.
So I did and we sat for a bit watching a movie and eating. He was picking at me about the "new guy". I picked back a little about OW but it was all light and did not end in any kind of argument.
He would say the same things as before about it being "love" with this new guy and was picking about sweet loving things that we probably say to each other (which we don't) and I said "yea I bet you tell OW that she is the only one for you and how you love her clear down in the bottom of your soul..blah blah blah." and he came over to give me hug before I left and leaned into my ear and said "no, YOU are the only one for me and you are the one I love...blah blah blah."
But it was said in a joking kinda manner just as I had put it to him about OW. I don't take those things that he says to me like that to heart. I think he just blows smoke up my a$$.
