ok...and yes..I clearly don't know what I'm doing..I know I'm a good guy. I know I have high values..I know this dating thing really has me conflicted..

I saw VST41 again last night..I drove to her hometown. Went to a local wing place..I met two of her daughters..she took me to the school she teaches and showed me her class room...

she makes me feel awesome..and it scares the chitt out of me..which I think is natural and is what I should feel..and it scares the chitt out of her..which is natural....

I guess my problem with all this is the dating thing...I need to investigate this sitch with the VST41 and make sure what is felt by both of us is true...and not have anything clouding my judgement..so..I'm pretty much pulling myself from the pool....just to see how it goes with VST41..and she has done the same..

I just feel a need to see what happens..I feel i'm doing an injustice to myself, an injustice to her if I don't give this a try.. I also feel that if I keep playing the field then I'm doing an injustice to everyone involved...

I know I'm a good guy..I know I'm a nice guy..I guess I'm tempting the "nice guys finish last thing again"

we will see..it's gonna be really, really, really slow slow..and frustrating

I know I'm gonna catch helll here..

so just bring it..damn..just bring it

Last edited by M from Tennessee; 01/13/09 02:09 PM.