Had supper with both my stepdaughters last night. Their idea...then proceeded to drive the younger one to the airport (she's heading out west for a few months). They commented on how nice I looked and how well I seem to be doing. They were exagerating on the first part but I know i am doing alot better than the last time we were all together. It was nice to see how well the two sisters get along...compared to when they were alot younger. It waas scary at times back then.... The older one kept badmouthing her mom (or at least trying to). I told her on several occassions that it was not neccesary....she asked how my parents are taking all this (her mother's less than normal behaviour) etc. I simply replied that I take my share of the responsibility for the breakup. I never have nor ever will divulge any additional information regarding her mom to anybody. There is no reason for anyone to think less of her just for my personal satisfaction. She is still the mother of my child and nobody needs to know her inappropriate actions in the last couple of years. However, I can not hide the fact that she has a boyfriend or anything else that happens in D8's presence. They asked about my personal life and i replied that i was in no rush to jump into a long term relationship. however, one never knows....I think I showed them both a good example last night as i have tried to do in the last ten years or so.... They are good kids. I did the best I could while I was in their daily lives. The oldest one did say.... "don't worry we won't turn into our mother and especially not our grandmother". Boy did I have to bite my lip on that mother in law remark. So, to change the subject...I have lost all motivation for my job....but this is not a good time to go job hunting. Tonight I have a supper date with AE45 (airline employee). Hope to have some enjoyable female company ... a couple of glasses of wine and we will see where this goes.
