Going dark for now still feels like the right thing for me. I think it's helping me.
Just leaving for work and journalling... a contractor came to measure for a new fireplace. We had a brief but friendly chat about life - his and mine. There's lots of different ways to make connection in this world and practice new relating skills.
I was listening to the radio this weekend and heard the following quote:
"Be compassionate, for everyone you meet is fighting a great battle."
Day by day the "battle" will get easier and finding compassion for ourselves, each other and our spouses is one of the keys.