-I find stbx attractive physically, he was a good lover -Our history together, stbx feels like a longtime friend (but not really the best friend to me I suppose) -I think stbx is smart intellectually and talented in his music. I admire that he is determined to make his music a success. I admire that stbx can be a strong person and make it through anything (of course this backfires against me too) -I value M, I want my own family, don't like the idea of D- feel like a failure (I know this is all me, and not him) -I remember the times when stbx made me feel like I was special. He would ask for hugs and be so loving/sensitive, more sensitive than any one I have ever known (it was very up and down in frequency though) He's a man of extremes (bipolar). It's either "all or nothing" with him.
Seeing the 'good' in a situation is my one of my habits and coping mechanisms. It is a strength of mine, I know I just need to use it to help myself and take care of myself.
DBer since 2003 D - 3/24/09 GAL and DBing for myself
