I dont know if it is such a good thing for the kids. They may be building up high expectations of reunification of their parents.

You should NOT have an honest conversation with the X - it will only open old wounds and make it harder for you to heal and move on.

Have you considered seeing a counselor or life coach to help yourself heal and get "happiness" and "zest" back into your life?

Have you gone skiing much this year? I can understand the lack of desire because of the tremendous amount of snow you have been getting.