I think I need to be a bit dark to heal more. It's difficult to be fun and upbeat when my heart hurts this much. I do act "as if", but it's a strain and it depletes my energies.
Until h heals more I'm also not sure that showing that I'm the more attractive option (which is also what Jody DB coach talks about) is really effective. He's in IC and I don't know status of ow.
I'm doing some pretty intensive IC (1.5 hours/week) and reading alot of self-help books, journalling, talking to friends and galing. The PMA is a struggle much of the time, at least internally, but I still "act as if". The ADs are starting to help but will probably take another month before they really help with anxiety.
I wish I knew what the "answer" was to a recon or whether we ever will recon, but that would be reading the future. I'm trying to follow the good advice I've received here about living in the moment.
Going somewhat dark is part of taking care of myself right now when I still feel so vulnerable and am working things through for myself.
Anything in the stars I should know about Alie? I am Leo; my is Sag
