Hey T.. glad it helped, but I dont know how! Because of your difficult cello lesson, delivering a message to you you needed to hear? My Passionate M book turned up, very good it is too! And not too hard to read as I feared. Pretty good stuff. Made me want to call my ex and say "listen to this!!".
Hey Dawn and Julia.. yep, all the cancerians I know are possibly more attached to their cats than the people in their life!! Until they have children, if they do. Cancerians were born to 'mother' thats true. Thanks for thinking about me and yes I was on a break.. I start back today, but I'm not excited about it!
I've been through a difficult few days. I accept he is gone, with someone else and unless I hear news to the contrary, I give up really. Apart from the NYE text, I havent heard from him since 19th Dec.
I woke up thinking about him today, as I do EVERY morning, usually its the sort of anxious dreams you have to fight awake from. But this morning I woke up having a vivid memory of him sweetly telling me about the book he was reading, as he would always, the Shawshank Redemption, how harrowing it was in places. And I remembered what a lovely, sweet, thoughtful, well educated guy he is. How I miss that. How he is good enough for me. How he isnt the pariah or lying selfish b*stard he may seem to be this past year. That has been his behaviour, sadly, but thats not the man I knew the previous 12 years. So, that was a nice memory of him talking to me, that is as always, tinged with the sadness of losing him from my life.
