Only look forward

[still hopeful]

Frank,

I am following your sitch closely. My heart aches for you. The only remedies for the pain your are feeling that I know of are:

(1) strengthen your faith, if you get a chance listen to the song, Bring the Rain by MercyMe, very appropriate for you and your faith right now;
(2) continue working on you in earnest to be a better Christian, person, man, father, friend...everything; this work is your gift to you and if your W turns out to be your XW, in some ways, you'll owe her a debt of gratitude for getting you moving in the right direction to improve both YOU and your life;
(3) find new hobbies and/or interests to divert your attention away from your W's middle school tryst; it won't last, but YOU will. You are an initiator, not just a survivor.

I closing tonight, I do say that having a need to be on this board sucks. My prayers are with you to be strong and to survive this mess well, but to live while you are surviving...that is the key.

Talk to you soon.

Tom