Thanks - all good things to hear. I'm trying to find myself but recovering the heart I lost? Seems distant right now. The thing is that XW and I, above all else, talked. I thought it was unique when I first met her. And now as I go on without her I still think it is, can't talk to anyone else like we used to. I'm sure I'll meet someone else, but feel frustrated at the setback. At the lack of commitment. At everything. At myself. And of course, as mentioned initially, we don't even connect when we talk anymore, mainly due to me keeping things shallow.
Recover the heart I lost. I guess part of the difficulty is that to do so is to really abandon XW and I have to admit that still I haven't done that completely. Even after all she has done and said, I'm holding out a bit of hope. Pathetic. But I made a commitment and it has been hard to truly let that go.
Steve, you're right. She moved on a long time ago. I'm the only one keeping this thing alive. I pretend like I've moved on to her, but here I am on this board. I miss her, what else can I say? But missing someone that much is ultimately not trusting enough in yourself.
Recover the heart I lost. I like that. It doesn't imply baggage but rebirth.
