It is so good to hear from you. I understand how you are feeling. I have been battling that alone feeling and missing H, too.
I think traveling may exascerbate your feelings of loss. I think it's to do with the change of surroundings. Even if you are busy with work, the change makes you more aware of other change in your life. Plus, travel away from home makes most everyone a little homesick and when home has problems, well, not a great combination.
Glad to hear you feel you'll be able to muster up some PMA. I know that this is difficult to do, I am struggling with this a lot right now, but it really is the only way we can do this.
