So, my w didn't come home last night as expected. I didn't expect to go skiing with her today so I went to church this morning which was helpful. During the service she texted me ( I had my phone on silent). because I wasn't responding she texted were r u? she asked if I would be mad if we didn't go skiing. I expected it. She said her head hurt and was hung over. I didn't respond until after the service. I said no problem I am going to head up to the ski hill and drop our dog of at her mothers. She texted who you going with. I joked just me and my car I need to practice my skills.
I wanted her to see that I am not just waiting around for her plus I wanted to go skiing.
I went skiing by myself and had a blast it was just what the doctor ordered. Later she texted me I am so sorry I was looking forward to skiing with you. I replied we can do it another day I needed to practice so I can keep up with her. (trying to show I didn't care and make a joke). She replied back tommorow night? I didn't reply right away but finally said ok. On the way home she texted me again that night skiing would be fun and she would try to get off work early.
She told me that she was just leaving the town were the ski hill was and consequently Om condo. She had interjected that the girls were making fun of her hang over. Don't know if she was telling the truth or trying to deflect and she was there with just him. I am really trying not to think about it but right now my gut is churning and I really know that I should have zero expectations but as Craig said I let my guard down and got burnt a bit. Oh well I have to remain focused
I picked up the dog and went home. I saw my w we had a pleasant conversation and she even said that she was going to pay for my skiing because I had bought the groceries this week.
She then said she was going to a friends to watch 24 (she didn't say who which in the past usually means other man.) Out the door she went. I have no expectations of going tomorrow but will be positive and have a back up plan. I can go to a cooking class that I wanted to go to. She is treating me like a friend I guess I need not to have expectations. I have not raised a stink about the weekend and have not even talked about were she was, she probably was expecting an angry response, certainly not the acting as if it was nothing. If we go tomorrow I will just use it as one more positive contact. I am trying to keep zero pressure on her. Funny, she was telling me that her mother has been wanting us to get back together and she was irritated about it, I said you don't need that pressure, she seemed to appreciate it and said ya your right.
When I went to her mothers to pick up the dog I tried to tactfully say to her mother that my wife doesn't need pressure right now and that I am not giving her pressure I want her to have a clear mind to think. I hope she got the message because my wife doesn't want to talk to her right now because of the pressure.
Even funnier my wife was asking me to cover for her when I talked to her mother saying she was busy right now and can't talk. I am hoping it is because she is feeling comfortable with me now.
Any way I have rambled again I have no Idea what is going on right now , back and forth as expected but I am still DBing and will have back up plans when she cancels stuff so that I won't be disappointed and she sees that I can have fun without her and have a life of my own.
I am going to go to bed before she gets home I don't want her to think I am waiting up for her.
Cheers all I am goi
ME 44 W 32 M 5 T 6
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June 08 I don't want to be married it's not you it's me
