Reading back what I read I realized it it a bit confusing. Because I am too. I will look into MC again tomorrow. Maybe go back to my IC and ask her to suggest someone to me, she knows the whole story....
That's a solution based decision Kalni and exactly the direction you need to head, IMO. I appreciate your response and understand it. I am simply amazed that you have stood through the toughness of all of this.
I also understand how hard it is to want your family to remain intact. It is difficult to make decisions that you know could impact your kids and goes against your very nature to protect them. Hence the statement that you must exhaust every opportunity you need to to secure yourself in your decision. Marriage counseling is a solid move in that direction.......