I am sorry to see that you broke NC...however I compleletly understand As much as I wanted too I didn't because I couldn't put myself thru listening to him be happy..or I thought that he was ... I refused to put myself thru the heartache and pain...and I was able to deal with it better that I didn't contact him. Don't get me wrong it tore me up but the less I knew the better in my stitch.. Take Snodderly's advise and drop the rope...he's in depression and replay and that is somewhere that is the hardest to go thru. He also KNOWS that everytime you call or if he calls your going to let him have it so why would he call or even answer your calls. It's the hardest thing to do but LET HIM BE... concentrate on your self ....concentrate on your self..I repeated myself on purpose. You doing great with the painting..someone suggested selling things to make money especially for new linen in your room also think about painting it...rearrange the living area...how about another room.
Keeping the focus on ourself is the hardest when you get so focued on what is happening in your life that is so heartbreaking and painful...however do not get stuck there keep moving forward that is what gets your own self empowerment that is something so awesome that you can't beleive that you were so focused on your stitch that to once attain it you will never give it up again...this is when we were so focused on H and family that we forgot ourselves and our need and wants..You will become the strongest person that you know..and it is the greatest feeling in yourself.
You are doing great and you know what you need to do I beleive in you, and moving in your own direction is good...how about reading if you have the book on doing some 180's...make a list on what yu can do for yourself and for your marriage..Rearranging the room is one go on to another one...rearrange the living area so that he sees your moving on in YOUR life...dbing isn't always about the marriage I choose to look at it as something for me in my stitch that worked best for me..
As far as friends go invite the girls over for a night together...I know it sounds huge but do what you did with them before MLC...let them know that yu still need their friendships especially living in a smalll town..plan a theme or a sewing circle you like to cross stitch etc... make it sound like a good time for all and keep the focus OFF your stitch...they do not know how to handle the situation that you are in and are afraid ... so plan the evening just for the girls so they know that your okay and doing fine even if your not.
Your getting some great advise here listen to it and start implementing the ideas and suggestions and advise.. I will look in on you later.. ITSY Are you not allowed to leave the house? you mentioned probation....
M54 H54 married 30 years Prostitues and Other women "100's" 10/7/2004 Prostitue/Junkie girlfriend 6/04-1/07? Left 1/5/05 returned 1/9/05 Asked h to leave 4/2005 Had to, prostitues OW 5/2005 not a prostitue Divorced 9/2006
