Two WAS's- is it really meant to be or walk away?

[Loving_Life]

MsM thanks for the comments! The D was filed in WI, "jointly" before I left. Stbx was badgering me endlessly about it and I knew I needed financial protection if we were to be separated, so I went ahead and signed temporary order papers before I left. At the time, I felt ready to give up. Here's why: I did wait 2-1/2 months after stbx's D bomb(last May), living in the house with him, trying LRT and putting off signing papers before I ended up moving out(Aug). He told his parents we were getting a D right away last May! Then he applies for a refinance right away last June (before D papers were filed or anything) He had never done something like that before. Then he took off his ring, and told all his friends(June). My feelings have been up and down since leaving of course. After the 4 mo waiting period, I asked my lawyer to hold - then a 'status check' date was assigned to our case by the judge in March. This could be our final D hearing if we have a signed final agreement to present(which stbx wants).

In addition to stbx's bi-polar issue, he also has a substance abuse problem (mostly smoking), so his state of mind is difficult to work with. He's impulsive and impatient. The smoking actually helps calm him down, but then he's in a fog. He's convinced it's his 'medicine'.

One very positive thing about your H is that he did talk about how he felt about himself & your M.

Yes, I'm glad that he was able to share some thoughts a few months ago. This was right after the 'waiting period' for the D was up and I told him we needed to decide if we were continuing with the D or we could cancel the case. I think he felt like I understood him and he was relieved - but now he just wants it to be over with as soon as possible. I'm not sure if I have enough to go on anymore.