So I guess I should have expected it, she went skiing this morning as my earlier post said. I went to my buddy's 40 th birthday party. I didn't speak to or text her all day but while I was at the party she texted me when was I going to be home because she thinks she is too drunk and won't make it home...WTF. (Just had to get that out). I sent back a text stating not sure when I will be home but our dog will be ok, be safe.
She replied I will (smiley face) hope you have a good night.
I replied thanks talk to you later. (smiley face).
What I wanted to reply would not be so pleasant because I suspect she was skiing at OM resort condo and that is were she is staying tonight. We were supposed to go skiing together Sunday but looks like that won't happen . So I am going to go on my own if she says she can't make it.
I know once again I can't give OM my energy but man I am lonely. While at the b-day party I saw the love between my friend and his wife, and I guess I was a bit jealous. people wanted me to talk to some different woman but that wasn't my gig. I socialized and realized I have alot to offer. My goal is still my wife. I guess I am feeling a bit sorry for myself tonight, we all get to have bad days despite some positive stuff.
Oh Well tommorow is another day.
Cheers
jeff
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June 08 I don't want to be married it's not you it's me
