Time for me to change....scared as Hell! 2

[theotherhalf]

I have been doing better. I've done all that you say. But it is getting worse instead of better?

H came this morning to push snow. He stayed outside. Went to the other place for awhile. I was in the basement working and came up, he was gone...

Never came in to say hi or give me a chance to say thank you.

One of the times I cant stop from falling. I feel so hurt. So rejected. Why does he hate me so? He says he doesn't. Why is he making this so hard? He says he's not. Evey fiber in my body screams that this is so very very wrong!